Saturday, September 25, 2004
ARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG Mom called this morning and wanted to come back - ummmm I don't think so!!!!! WTF?? She's only been gone a week.... Then she called to cancel the "order"... whatever...
Life is fairly good although Dev was home 2 days this week - he didn't sleep well and was having a rough time in the am - better to keep him home as he had some major meltdowns but overall he's doing well - I had him do some extra homework and damn the boy is smart!!! Dilen is doing well in Kindi too - picture day is Tues and I am excited...
E is having a rough time this weekend so far - he's really really working on his drinking problem and it's been rough for him but we are just taking things one day at a time and I am doing alot of praying..
And speaking of praying - since the cat is out of the bag for the most part.... I am pregnant... Seems my birthday celebration really left me w/a wonderful gift... I am due 4/26/05 and I am just over 9 wks pg... God works in mysterious ways for sure - while I am still a little shocked as I was never even thinking/planning this right now and I am nervousand scared, I am also happy and excited - any and every baby is a blessing... I have been to doc twice for a u/s and all looks well - sac was well rounded and had a nice "halo" the first time and last Thurs it was same and baby was looking well w/a heartbeat... I am still hesitant to be overly excited and pray multiple times a day to keep the baby safe, healthy and strong... I have another appointment on Oct 15th which will be just past the 12 wk mark... IF I can manage to stay away from the office and not stress too much before then...
The boys are excited although Dilen was worried at first and told me I couldn't have a baby that I already had a baby - him... I explained that I would always love him, he will always be my baby Dilen and that I love him and Deven the same and would still love them the same even after the baby comes... He is ok now and looking forward to being a big brother... E too is happy yet I think he is also hesitant to be too attached at times as we were both so heartbroken last time but overall he's happy... and yes E is the father.... We have been working on reconciling and trying to work things out for a couple of months now... So far, while it's been rocky and emotional at times, it's going well... He's really working on bettering himself and I am working on just taking things one day at time and repeating the Serenity Prayer ALOT....
Well I am tired and the bean wants a cheeseburger which my gf should be bringing any minute now... She is spending the night since her SO and E are working the night shift... We are gonna watch Mean Girls and crash out.... Now where is that cheeseburger! *L* Til next time...
Life is fairly good although Dev was home 2 days this week - he didn't sleep well and was having a rough time in the am - better to keep him home as he had some major meltdowns but overall he's doing well - I had him do some extra homework and damn the boy is smart!!! Dilen is doing well in Kindi too - picture day is Tues and I am excited...
E is having a rough time this weekend so far - he's really really working on his drinking problem and it's been rough for him but we are just taking things one day at a time and I am doing alot of praying..
And speaking of praying - since the cat is out of the bag for the most part.... I am pregnant... Seems my birthday celebration really left me w/a wonderful gift... I am due 4/26/05 and I am just over 9 wks pg... God works in mysterious ways for sure - while I am still a little shocked as I was never even thinking/planning this right now and I am nervousand scared, I am also happy and excited - any and every baby is a blessing... I have been to doc twice for a u/s and all looks well - sac was well rounded and had a nice "halo" the first time and last Thurs it was same and baby was looking well w/a heartbeat... I am still hesitant to be overly excited and pray multiple times a day to keep the baby safe, healthy and strong... I have another appointment on Oct 15th which will be just past the 12 wk mark... IF I can manage to stay away from the office and not stress too much before then...
The boys are excited although Dilen was worried at first and told me I couldn't have a baby that I already had a baby - him... I explained that I would always love him, he will always be my baby Dilen and that I love him and Deven the same and would still love them the same even after the baby comes... He is ok now and looking forward to being a big brother... E too is happy yet I think he is also hesitant to be too attached at times as we were both so heartbroken last time but overall he's happy... and yes E is the father.... We have been working on reconciling and trying to work things out for a couple of months now... So far, while it's been rocky and emotional at times, it's going well... He's really working on bettering himself and I am working on just taking things one day at time and repeating the Serenity Prayer ALOT....
Well I am tired and the bean wants a cheeseburger which my gf should be bringing any minute now... She is spending the night since her SO and E are working the night shift... We are gonna watch Mean Girls and crash out.... Now where is that cheeseburger! *L* Til next time...
